"I congratulate you, my dear fellow. In this world there are only two tragedies. One is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it. The last is much the worst, the last is a real tragedy!"
– Dumby in "Lady Windermere’s Fan"
Wants
Have you been thinking more about what you want? Or are you leaning more toward thinking about what you don't want any longer? It's normal. I think.
I used to work with a woman who went into a deep funk after 9/11. It resulted in a years long hiatus from a high-powered corporate job.She was asking these questions of herself over and over, and got stuck on repeat. I met her just as she was re-emerging.
Most of the decision loops I get caught in involved baked goods, not work. I don't mull over changing jobs or starting companies if I start thinking about not getting what I want, or not wanting to continue work for a company. Which probably explains a lot.
I've been thinking about her as I struggle to finish yet another home project. I just need to pick a paint color. How hard can it be? The people behind me have built a new house on top of their house in the time it's taken me to spackle the holes in the wall.
Spackle is a great word, isn't it? It reminds me of a friend nicknamed Spence. My text auto-correct wants to correct it to Spank. This makes me laugh.
Spank is great at projects. He has the tools, the patience, and the ability. When he's finished it looks like something you'd buy in a store. I don't talk to him about my projects because, well, I don't know why. He tells me stories about his projects and I listen with wide-eyed wonder. What would it be like to have that power?
I'm a fan of friend's stories. There it is. That's something I want more of. But I may want fewer projects. Jury's out on that.
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